the whole of 2007 and i only posted 4 items. Amazing.

i questioned you about our happy times
you did not reply
instead you ran away

and said, "thats it."

it was screaming in the silence
seething from your tongue
that it did not matter.

honesty does not pay.
but if i did not tell u, who will?

heres for you min, i wonder if i'll see you at the flea.

I love the way you love
But I hate the way
I'm supposed to love you back

It's just a fad
Part of the teenage angst brigade and
I'm not, not sure,
Not too sure how it feels
To handle everyday
Like the one that just past
In the crowds of all the people

Remember today
I've no respect for you
And I miss you love
And I miss use love..

anonymous
where are u?

i just re read your comments
and i just realised
that reading comments like yours are so uplifting
while being a total stranger

just to let u know
that i thank you for that
because life can be such a mystery sometimes
that even angels you dont know
can warm your heart in the littlest ways possible.

life is really interesting
all sorts of people around
all sorts of queer behaviour

the spite and the malice
the insecurity
and then u start to feel insecure yourself
paranoid, and neurotic

it starts to affect you and the people around you,
who are, already queer.
and how we wish i never knew you
your history
and you didnt know mine,
but i didnt know you id never feel be this way.

and then we ask ourselves, yet again
who do you trust?

its been so quiet.. me

the past month flew by like the wind,
there was terrible spending,
there was moleskine,
there was the first anniversary.

ive got so many ideas in my head but i dont know how to put it all to work
theres something stopping me but i dont know what..
stripping me down

its funny but somehow inside i think im slowly fading away

a whole year of routinely events
and sometimes i wonder how i keep up with it.
i'm definitely not looking or getting better
and my life just f(l)uck-tuates like a topsy turvy roller coaster in Disneyland.
u dive in all happy then u go up and down and feel sick, then eventually it all ends, u puke your guts out, and possibly regret that u have taken that ride but then again u still go.

i should really take a break but i just get sucked in all over again

its getting colder everyday and i dont know why.
maybe im getting ill.. or perhaps its just the weather
rain can sometimes be so soothing yet so depressing

i wonder if i had just been fooling myself
being a creative do sometimes have its perks and downers
being imaginative makes u happy
but it also keeps u happy
but that means its just like a high
when ur actually really sad
but imagining a happy picture just temporarily blinds u for a while
then it fades out

and the cycle repeats.

like a rollercoaster..